The Fault in Our Stars + workout + design ideas

The book was amazing. Very glad it was recommended to me. Very glad I read it.

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Started the new workout routine yesterday.

Warmup - JJ x50, squats x20, straight leg swing x10, side leg swing x10, hip raises x10, pushups x10, aaand realized I need to do it upstairs where there is carpeting. Plywood is not friendly to my knees. Also, it's kinda splintery. F that.

Push press - 3x5 - 44 lbs.

• Should have been 5x5, but my right knee started pinching. Sharp pain towards the outer part of the kneecap area. Decided to call it.

So, that ends day 1. It hurt too much to even consider weighted squats, unfortunately. Will try again Friday. If pain continues, may call the doc, as it might be all part of this weird knee shit I've had for going on seven months.

Ordered my assistance bands for pull ups. Super excited about that. And a jump rope. Not as excited about that.

Goals for next paycheck:

• Oly bumper weights.
• Dip station.
• Legit squat shoes (maybe).

Need to foam roll tonight... Pain.

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Have some interesting ideas for my mom's shop, when she opens it. Need to pick up another bead loom, but I have a neat idea for making infinity scarves with it, as well as add-on pieces for fingerless gloves. I also saw some potential ideas for enhancing flip flops... we'll see! Just need more free time, damn it all.

Scandal!

I am soooo excited for Scandal to be back on TV. Definitely a show I enjoy, when I have the time to catch up on it. 

Didn't get everything done this weekend that I wanted to, but I got a huge chunk of it out of the way. Basement has been seriously dented, and my room is totally different. Still have to finish the room, get the secondary bookcase up, and then I can start dragging books upstairs from the basement. Not looking forward to that part, but oh well. 

Knee is still bothering me... I do need to make that doc appt. Sigh. I don't really want to find out anything else that's wrong with my body, but, gotta face it so I can fix it, I suppose.
 

This video is incredibly well done.  I love PTX.

 

Feeling blah

Website update today, did not get the workout time in that I wanted to.  Also finished the update rather late, so I'm not sure I'll wake up at 6 and get my workout in before work.  Going to attempt it... we'll see what happens.

I'm still not sure how to feel about this film class I have on Thursdays.  It feels pretty simple and straight forward... but I think I'm missing something rather crucial that is going to bite me in the ass.  Not sure what that's about, but I definitely feel it.

I find this song pretty inspiring, to be honest.  I've had to fight my way through a lot of crap... and while I know it may not compare to another person's struggles, they were mine, are mine, and I need to continue to beat them.

I was lost for a few years.  That makes me angry, because I can never get that time back.  I'm 28.  The fuck was I doing, wasting that time?

I have to remember it wasn't a waste.  I learned about myself, I somehow managed to grow, despite the obstacles weighing me down.

I won. 

I am in CONTROL

And now I am tired.  Bonne nuit. 

"Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?"

I have yet to find time to grocery shop this week, hoping to get that taken care of on Wednesday, so I can cook for the remainder of the week... I really enjoyed having all my food prepped on Sundays, it's just super time consuming. But, gotta catch those goals.

Speaking of goals, outlined some for this weekend. One of which is to make this recipe, because it looks damn delicious.

 I am also stuck on this song... it follows me.

The other goals include cleaning out my basement so I can finally get my power rack down there, picking out a weight bench, getting a bar, and uh... homework. 

Cheers.
 

Been a while...

Always good to hunt down blogs of the past. I completely forgot about this one. We'll see what I do with it.

Currently addicted to nail polish and squats... I've missed writing. I read this today and it rapped on my heart, saying, "Are you awake?":

Sonnet XVII

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

Pablo Neruda

The Beginning...

And so I have created a new spot among the masses...


Though originally from a fairly decent sized suburb of Chicago, I am currently in California enjoying the sun, warmth, and eye candy it provides. San Diego is a beautiful place...

I don't have much to write about right now, though I will say cold Green Tea is pretty disgusting.